On Wednesday as you might know, we got some bad news. I have cancer in my lungs and in the area of my left eye. So unless God decides to spare me I am going to die. I am not sure how long it will be. It could be a month it could be a year. As a transplant patient on immune suppression drugs it is impossible to tell. As you could guess it has been a hard few days thinking of my wife and two little boys. It breaks my heart to think that my boys will not have their dad in their lives. It breaks my heart to think that my wife will have to go to bed every night without anyone to snuggle her.
But there is more. Since I bought my little blue car, I have had the license plate of Phil3 8 on it. This stands for Philippians 3:8 which says, ”What is more I consider everything a loss to the surpassing knowledge of knowing Christ Jesus, for whom I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish that I might gain Christ. Over the past weeks I have thought about this verse quite a bit. For so long I have not lived what this verse said. Although I have not lived it this is what I do believe. I do consider everything a loss compared to Jesus. Yes I am super sad for my family, but I am so looking forward to seeing the King. It will not be too long and I will get to be with Him. There will be no more pain, no more cancer, no more tears of anything bad. I will be healed from sickness and from sin. I will no longer ever do anything wrong.
I have lost all things for Jesus, and there is nothing better. It is not an easy journey, but it is one worth walking. It has made me, and my wife different people. It has made us fully dependant on the Lord. It has caused us to throw away the normal and worthless things of life, and instead it has caused us to seek God, and to firmly put our faith and hope in Him. We are not perfect by any means, but through this journey of being purified we have been changed. This is still an extremely hard time. We have shed many tears, and we will continue to. We covet your prayers and encouragement.